Heartbreak

I got the call and it broke my heart. I was so full of different emotions. I was sad, confused, and utterly shocked. I just couldn't believe what I heard. It was like I was on autopilot. I hear a sad song and start to cry. I look at a picture and I start to cry. But what really got me was how everybody cried and I started to bawl.

About two months later, I've learned to accepted it, but not everybody else. I realized that some people have different grieving processes. Some people hang on and some let go. The "hanging on" grievers are the ones who can't keep going. I know it hurts, but we are in the present surrounded by family and friends trying to support one another. But looking in the future is another story. It's the possibility of never seeing that person married, having kids, and other big life events that we are going to miss.

The "letting go" grievers are the ones who still think about them at necessary times, but still live their lives. I believe in some cases that these type of grievers are the healthiest because it's not leading their lives away from family and friends. They still think of them from time to time.

Love you and miss you, Michael. RIP Mike Wizowski.

Leaving

Leaving may be the hardest part, but at the end of the day it's the right choice. It's the right choice because we all need a chance to start a better life for ourselves. We need to be able to be ourselves and be able to find ourselves. That's why a lot of us start over. We want to be free and independent. We want to be able to do it on our own terms. A lot of us need this kind of change in our lifetimes. So don't be afraid to venture off because it's our time to show people of what we are made of.