Stayed

     I should've stayed at that party.
     That's what I tell myself everyday for the past two weeks now. I can't help feeling guilty of leaving early. Maybe if I had stayed she would still be here. What if?
     What if I were there by her side like I always have been? What if she actually listened to me for once and went home? What if I haven't given her the benefit of a doubt? What if he wasn't there?
     Would she still be here?
     I should've stayed.

World v. Perfection

First off, what does perfection even mean? The dictionary defines perfection as being free of flaws or defects. But what does perfection mean to this world in this century?

A lot of people in this century and generation seem to be obsess with the word perfect. Like perfect physically, emotionally, mentally, and verbally. Or to the kids now; perfect body, life, and personality. To the adults; perfect job, family, religion, and life. 

That's just how are minds work though. We want perfection, so we look down/up on others to see if they have everything put together perfectly. But that's why there's a saying that says, "nobody's perfect." If everyone was perfect, how would the world be? Boring, bland, distasteful. I see our imperfections as how our world has shaped up. Otherwise what news would be on the news if everyone and everything was perfect? What would be the meaning of unique if everyone and everything was so perfect that everyone and everything would be the same. Our imperfections makes us and that's where being unique comes from. We try to pick out everybody's and everything flaws so we could better ourselves.

Our Future

Everyone has their own way of growing up. It just takes time to figure it out. So wait. Be patient. Be who you set out to be. One day there is going to be a time when you think back and wonder how life became to be. Don't force it. Just succumb it. You take the paths. Those paths with lead to your future. It's in your control.

Time of Our Lives

Isn't college suppose to be the times of our lives? Where we could make new friends and be ourselves without any worry. But it's the opposite for me. It's hard to make friends and to put myself out there. I mean I'm friendly, but I'm not exactly confident. Meaning that people will have to come up to me and talk. Like you would say, "Hi," and smile then I would reciprocate that. I can't be that person to start a conversation unless I know you well enough. I feel judge if I start a conversation with a stranger. That is why if you see me and I don't know you well I won't say hi unless you say it first. I know it's weird, but that's just the way I am with people. That's probably why I'm not having the time of my life.