I am cutting myself out of pictures and throwing them away. I try to cut the memories and throw them out of my life. I see myself as trash. Trash as in something or someone that doesn't belong here. All my life for almost 18 years, I've been told that I'm a retard, stupid, irresponsible, and too immature. And as I look up, I tell God th go fuck himself. To go help someone that is worth more than me. Tell him that why should I pray to him if doesn't even help me out for a tiny bit. But no. I find myself as getting more irritated every freaking day. And I know that one day I might explode. And I'm scare that I might hurt someone or myself. I just can't stand it any longer. My parents just don't understand of who I am or who I'm going to be. Even I don't know who I am. I just don't understand them. And if I become a parent, I know that I will be better than them. I will treat them better and pay more attention to them.
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